It's Sunday, 1/20/08, a big game for the Patriots inNew England today. It's cold and windy but at least sunny!

Mom answered the phone when I called this morning...she said she slept really well and to take my time getting there. This is huge! She hs steadily but slowly improved over the week. She is so weak that her biggest exercise is getting up to go to the bathroom. It's beenhard leaving her as she gets a scared look on her face and gets worried that she will be neglected if she is left alone. I have no fear of this at Baystate. The nurses and aides have been the best. They listen, are cmpasionate and really care for her well. They are well documented and pass along info and most importantly they are gentle with my mom wihtout being condescending. Huge shout out and much gratitudtue to the nurses and aides and respiratory OF SPRINGFIELD 1!!!!!
I don't know how they do it in an dout...they are amazing people.

So today I actually gave myself time to take a shower before heading to the hospital. I have been there before 8 am most days and stay most of the day.
I need to get to work a bit this week...not only for the money but for the sanity. The people at the gym have been so awesome....another shout out to GOLD' GYM WEST SIDE!!! What would I do without their support!? And my clients.....gosh...I'm blessed. I guess if I am working a job without benefits the best and biggest benefit is the caring of the people I work with and beside!
It's overwhleming sometimes!!!! I am so blessed!
Let's get on with the day...the sunshine and positive vibe!!!!!!

GO PATS

It's snowing tonight. I am feeling pretty drained but wired. Mom is back in the hopsital and it has been a roller coaster ride! I have more friends than I can count across the national sending prayers and positive energy and I KNOW THAT IS HELPING..it's overwhelming to feel the presence of this energy.
It's also overwhelming to feel the energy of the end of life...fright, exhaustion, love, warmth, indecision, nurturing...it's strange and I guess natural...just when we feel we know wha tto expect in life ....we don't...

I am sharing this here because I am not sure where to put this....I pray for strength, guidance, energy to sustain me and finances to provide for me.......

Thank you for allowing me to indulge this here!

Trainig???? just a bit of cardio here and there with a protien pancke to nibble on thru the day...no structure...not a lot of peace...life

Happy New Year ALL!!

I am sorry I have not been on here much since November. The holidays were very busy and my mom didn't feel all that well.
I am working hard out of Gold's Gym in West Springfield, MA and am available for personal trianing and diet/nutritional consultation. I have individual and group rates as well as package plans!!!
I am also working on getting certificed by Les Mills to teach a Body Pump group exercise class. It's an awesome workout!!!! Please come try it!

I want to let you all know that my mom is not doing well with her health. She is in the end stages of emphazyma and she is very sick right now. We are working toward making her comfortable and hopefully getting her stronger. I pray she can breath a little easier and feel better.

Although we have known how her health will fail it really is hitting home to me now. I truely am understanding how much I will miss her when I cannot just talk to her when I want. I am spending ALL the time I can with her right now. She has been such a wonderful mom to me...always making my life as easy as possible...ALWAYS there for me! It's hard to imagine a day when I can't just go see her and talk with her and tell her about my day. We have had our moments but I couldn't have asked for a better mother or friend..she has been my best cheerleader...she has shown me the finer things in life...she has never given up on me...she has looked at life differently because of me even when she really didn't want to...she opened her mind and embraced me...ALWAYS!!!!!!

Help me to pray for her comfort and strength and PLEASE...appreciate what you have in your loved ones...life is always changing and NEVER stays the same!

Much thought today and many blessings to you all!!!
C

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